Everything between you and me has to be so Political

So I write this Blog after a long conversation on a car ride home last night with a long time friend of mine. I will not name names, but he is a very active person in the political ring, as well as many other things. He is the founder and leader of the largest youth oriented environmental group in the world, is a paid consultant, and has been an advisor to many important people. I write this intro so you know a bit about this person before I start to rant. So you understand why I believe what I do.

I am now trying to push him to run for political office. I think one day down the road he could be a great PM for our country. Here is where the rant starts, so strap yourself in. I think our country has lost a lot, and has no real leader currently in politics. If an election happens right now, nationally I would not vote for anyone. We need a leader with more charisma, someone people can and will follow.

We do not need a leader that is going to be bullied, or do a 180 on what he or she sets out to do. I think too often people get caught up in party lines, when really we should vote more for what is good for our country. My father was telling me today, that it is too hard for an independent to win, if you want a chance you have to be part of a party. That statement in itself is what is wrong with our country. Politicians get caught up in doing what is good for them to stay in office instead of what is right for their country.

So to finish, when we do finally have an election, I want you before you vote to stop and think is this what I really want?

Write when inspiration strikes!

When I started this blog, I had a much different idea of what I would be writing in my head. I for saw well written clear thoughts, about things that really matter to me. I pictured this blog that maybe someone would actually read. I do think I am a good writer, but my mind goes 900 miles an hour and if I don't stop to think about what I am going to say everything comes out in no real order. This is what you probably have read so far.

This is the paragraph where I would have changed topics three or four times, as more crazy comes flying out of my head, through my fingers and onto this blog. By sentence two I may have almost completely contradicted what I had just said. Now changing topics again, but this time in mid sentence, before I finish my last thought.

It makes for terrible reading, but good writing, and what I think about that is I do like my thoughts, even though I have not been able to capture them all the way I would have liked. For someone else to read it probably is very unorganized, and the grammar is off making it hard to read, as I do not proof what I have just read. But my thoughts lead to other things, and other ideas, and that is what this blog is for.

So you should not try to force good strong writing from a blog, but write what comes to mind trying to figure out where life takes you, and what path to take, what roads you missed and think you should have taken. With that I change subject for really the first time this blog.

So after talking with a friend I have really begun to wonder and question some of my choices in life. Wonder where things may have lead if only... Where would I be if I did not take that job that I just took, what would have happened if I could have let go and go after the girl for once, that maybe wasn't too young. Or tried to take a better look at my life at a younger age. Maybe gone back to school younger.

Well let's try and answer some of those questions now. Well definitely better of with work, as I could have taken on a lot more hours at work and not payed an extra bunch of money on my car for two months. Maybe I would be with that girl write now, with her over my shoulder reading this blog as I type it with different thoughts running through my head. Maybe writing about what a great time we had last night at somebody's party. With a career now, in something I liked.

Or

Maybe none of that as fantasy is always better than reality. But the thing is you can never have fantasy, where reality, reality is what you have to live with.

The road less Traveled

I now know why this road is less traveled, you get screwed over. So I took a job I mentioned, doing painting, and light Carpentry, it was suppose to be full time, it required me to insure my car as a business vehicle. I was only getting an average of 12 hours a week, and now I have been told there will be no more work for me.

My boss, went in a complete 180 degree turn. When he hired me, I was the wave of the future. They way he wanted to take his company, a young person, looking for direction in life, and wanting to grow. A person who had no experience and was going to learn the trade. Well it turns out, he has decided to only contract out work from now on, and thus he can not use me as I do not have the skills.

Really, you could not have figured this out before hand? He screwed me over in that I did not take full time at my other job, and now I can't get full time there. I have extra insurance on my car, and I turned down other work. I was banking on this because then I would be able to bank my entire other paycheck from my other job. Now I have to figure out how to make ends meet. October will be hard, but November is looking scary.

The music in me

There is something about music, it can make you feel like nothing else. Watch a movie and realize how powerful a soundtrack is, this is what is inspiring my next two projects. The first project is copied from another idea I saw on youtube. I am taking their idea, and making it my own. I do not want to go into two much detail, as I do not like divulge details over the internet.

The other project, is completely driven by the soundtrack, I want to do this to really explore how far you can take a soundtrack and how far I can take it. The details I will share about this, are I am going to turn it into a series, and the series will be a movie if played together.

I think we can all relate to that songs that reminds of something, that relationship we had, that goal we scored, or to sad time, and a dark place. Sometimes it is the best thing to listen to when we are trying to remember the past. The past is something we have to remember, and I think we all like to remember the good times anyway.

I am back, yes I am back

So I mentioned a few posts ago a girl, I have since then mentioned her a couple more times, and no this is not about me liking her, but something completely different. I mentioned her as a muse, and I thought I would blog about that this time. Well I have found myself creating this character for her. It is based on a couple people I know, and she is not one of them. I am however writing this character with her in mind and as the story is unfolding, she is the one in my mind that is this character. I would really like her to play this character as I am sure she will.

I write about this because I like the fact she is my muse, and it forces me to think about her a lot. She is definitely not a bad thing to have on your mind. I do not know if she will ever read this, and I write it thinking she will not, but I wonder what she would think if she did. Would she find it creepy? Be flattered? Understand the position I hold her?

I also wanted to talk about work, as I mentioned in my first post I was suppose to be working a lot. That has not happened. I have only averaged about 12 hours of work a week the last 5 weeks from my supposed full time job. It has put me in the position where I have to find new work. I feel a little bad but there is nothing I can do. It is really making it hard for me, as I currently have a ton of bills, and not a lot of money. I would have been fine if this job was even 30 hours a week. Now all I can hope for is that I will get new work soon, so I can afford to live.

Too Late

So I have been thinking a lot lately about what a friend told me. She thinks old things (for our conversation it was about multimedia, music Movies) can only be viewed as nostalgic, and thus should only be seen heard at random when you have no control. They should not be kept or held onto. If they were that makes you a "pack rat" of sorts.

I disagreed.

You see, I think good music is good music, and good movies are good movies. They are a lot like a painting. They are to be seen and viewed when one needs to feel a certain way. Yes sometimes you need it for nostalgic reasons, but that does not mean it is the only reason.

Time after Time

So as I get older I start to look at things a bit differently. I am not super old, hell I am not even 30, but I am at the age where I think you do have to think a lot about where you are in life, where you are going, and how you are getting there. In life we all see people from ever walk of life. I have begun more and more to think about how they got there. What I find I do now is think not just about where they are, but how that effects their kids.

Does where one is effect where ones children can go? I know there are always exceptions to the rule, but I really think it does. People in small towns generally stay their. People in poverty generally stay their. Again not always, but I think enough to consider it a pattern.

Now why am I saying this? where did this come from and what does it have to do with anything? Well I am writing character bios, and I think when you have characters that are going to be flat this is the pattern they stay. Your flat character is the norm. It is your depth main character that drives the story that changes everything, that bends the rules.

Now to bring it back to my life, I am tired of being flat. I want more, and I am ready to work for it.